I remember as a young girl seeing spirits but not completely understanding it or even believing what I saw was real. I use to comment to my friends about times when I would see little orbs floating to the sky and I believed that they were spirits going to heaven. I truly, 100% believed this, and my conviction convinced them too. We would start to make games of how we would defend these spirits and help them to reach heaven becoming warriors against anything that stood in our way.
One of the most prominent spirit memories I have as a child happened when I was about 8-years-old. I was by myself writing in the dining room when I looked up out the bay window and saw a young blonde girl in a white and pink dress sitting on the concrete slab at the end of my neighbor's driveway. She looked as if she was crying, as she had her head bent down into her hands. I went outside onto the porch and cried out, "Hey, are you okay?" She looked up at me with almost a surprised look on her face. I went down the stairs towards the horses field so I could talk to her but in the one moment I had looked down at the stairs and then back up, she was gone.
That was the last time I ever outwardly saw a spirit. From then out, I could only sense them, feel them, and every now and then, hear them. In my mind's eye I could still pick up how they looked in most cases but not all. Eventually we moved out of my first home and into a new one. This home brought a new spirit to me that I lived with for almost a year. I did not know who she was or what about the home or land she was attached to , but I did know that she was there. She made herself known to me by the feeling she put over me. It was a cold sensation that made my hairs stand on it's end. She was not a bad spirit although I could tell when she wanted to get my attention. She would turn my lights out on me for a while before turning them back on or flicker them a few times until I asked what she wanted or asked her to stop so I could continue working.
One night I had a few of my friends over and we set up a tent in my room. I began to tell them about the woman who was living in my room. My friend Nikki, instantly told me that there was no such thing as ghosts and she didn't believe me. As soon as she said this, my lights shut off and the radio started freaking out, making a scratching loud noise. "Great, you made her upset, " I remember saying to Nikki. Totally freaked out, Nikki threw her hands into the air and said "Okay, okay, I believe you are here!" As soon as she said this the lights turned back on and the radio went back to normal, playing a song as if it had never stopped.
One night I had a few of my friends over and we set up a tent in my room. I began to tell them about the woman who was living in my room. My friend Nikki, instantly told me that there was no such thing as ghosts and she didn't believe me. As soon as she said this, my lights shut off and the radio started freaking out, making a scratching loud noise. "Great, you made her upset, " I remember saying to Nikki. Totally freaked out, Nikki threw her hands into the air and said "Okay, okay, I believe you are here!" As soon as she said this the lights turned back on and the radio went back to normal, playing a song as if it had never stopped.
From that moment on, while I knew this spirit was not bad, I also knew not to mess with her.
Eventually I moved out on my own and for a while I could not sense spirits as much as I normally did. However, over the past year or two I have found myself completely surrounded by spirits.
When I started working at Massage Envy, I really started to notice a huge increase in my connection with spirits. Part of me thinks I just really let myself believe in everything that has been happening to me. As I started settling into my work with Massage Envy, I began to feel like I was not alone in the mornings and throughout the day I could feel an energy in a certain part of the clinic.
One morning this spirit really decided to show himself to me. I was early and by myself cleaning one of the rooms while listening to music. My music began to randomly skip or pause on itself and a couple times when I would turn around to figure out what happened I would notice that my phone was no longer on the table (or water tower in the second instance) but across the room and on the floor. I never heard the phone thump onto the floor at all. Then, while I was cleaning the door a commercial came on Pandora saying, "Would you like to make money while selling real estate in Charleston?" I answered "No" aloud and out of no where I heard a deep voiced, husky "Ha ha ha." I instantly froze as the cold tingling feeling overcame me. As soon as I was able to regain a part of myself I ran up front, praying that I was not really alone. I was though, all alone. I decided, hey, I've dealt with spirits before, just calm yourself. So I did, I grounded myself again and went back there. "Hi, you were just laughing with me, huh?" In that moment, I could sense who he was, what he was like and even what he looked like. I can still see him in my mind's eye today. He was an older gentleman in jeans, boots and a button up shirt. I felt like he was waiting patiently for his wife and he had a very sweet presence about him. I later spoke to a co-worker about my experience and before I could even get all of the words out, she filled in the rest for me. She knew exactly what I was going through because she had experienced the same thing.
Later I learned that she is also very in tune with spirits as well. She has been so instrumental in helping me with everything I am learning about and going through.
Soon construction started at work and the male presence followed me home. Everything was fine for a little while but after a bit, I could feel that he was becoming a little more possessive over me. My dog, who I feel can also sense spirits, started to get agitated with his presence and my husband would constantly be awakened from sleep and have restless nights. I still do not believe this spirit was bad, but I do feel like his attachment to me was becoming too much. Because of this, I told the man that he needed to leave, and he did.
Later I learned that she is also very in tune with spirits as well. She has been so instrumental in helping me with everything I am learning about and going through.
Soon construction started at work and the male presence followed me home. Everything was fine for a little while but after a bit, I could feel that he was becoming a little more possessive over me. My dog, who I feel can also sense spirits, started to get agitated with his presence and my husband would constantly be awakened from sleep and have restless nights. I still do not believe this spirit was bad, but I do feel like his attachment to me was becoming too much. Because of this, I told the man that he needed to leave, and he did.
Throughout this time I could sense other spirits however some stood out to me more than others. Recently a few have stuck out the most to me. A few weeks ago, while sleeping I was seeing a lady, probably between her 40's-50's, leaning over me. She had a very compassionate and sweet face and she was gently rubbing my arm. I started to wake up and as I did I could still see her and feel her. My arm was cold, especially the path that she was rubbing her finger across my arm. I could feel the cold moving. I jerked my arm as I came all the way awake telling her to quit and let me sleep. I covered my arm up and laid listening, wondering where she had gone. Within about 30 seconds my husband popped up in bed. I asked what was wrong with him and he told me that he saw something move. Apparently he saw a shadow on my side of the bedroom move past the TV and towards the door. This had to have been her, leaving the room because I asked her to let me sleep.
From here on out I decided that I have to find out more. Why am I experiencing these feelings and seeing these things? What do these spirits want from me? My coworker has been such a great mentor to me in all of this and is really helping me by just being able to listen and talk things out.
So here is my journey, this is my start. How do I find myself in all of this and how does this fit in with my faith? Guess it's time to figure it out.
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